IVP over

Yesterday was IVP. Woke up pretty early by my standards for a saturday n had lunch at my buddy's place. Headed to NTU for the ivp after cos there was a chance that she might be fighting. Well, she really wants to fight n is hoping that she could for a very long while. She got her chance n was fighting the last match of the day. It was worrying for everyone else cos her legs are suffering from serious injuries n a mistake might cos her to be handicapped for life. Guess God answered everyone's prayers n she fought only 1 person who had a good heart. Her opponent fought with full sportsmanship without stooping to kicking my buddy's leg. Still, it was quite sad to see my buddy cry in the ring.. N in order to watch my buddy fight n coach her, i had to cancel my class which inadvertently created quite a lot of trouble for the club.. Sighz.. i feel very apologetic to darren but i really didn't have a choice..

After the match, went to play lan game again. Was trying to help my buddy get past 1st act, so didn't do much to progress my character. Headed home after. Was very tired n had a splitting headache. Been having the headache since morning. Slept at about 2am n got up at 8+ this morning to rush down to NTU again. As my big sir wasn't around, he wanted me to be there to look after matters. Left at 2+ in the afternoon cos my big sir arrived n wanted to head home. Was so so tired that i drove slowly like a truck. Then I heard a song on the radio.. that reminded me of things n made me depressed for a while. In the end, i somehow ended up sleeping in the car near that place. Got woken up by a phone call n decided to play game again. Took my mind off stuffs.. Finished playing at about 11pm to have dinner then headed home. Need to do my work, but don't have the mood to do it. My mind's occupied with rubbish again. If only i can throw them out, if only i can toss them into the sea, if only i could just drown them.. n drown myself too...