Fraud no more

Was very stressed out yesterday. I was under lots of pressure to deliver my work (another fraud investigation) by yesterday evening n i had a new colleague helping me out. He just graduated n joined the firm last week so he was slightly slower. But still, he's supposed to be technically sound. In the end, i cleaned up more than 180 reports yesterday, while he did only 10 over.. Didn't know how to answer to my senior mgr who was wondering why we were taking so long since there were 2 of us working on it.

Then my older sis insisted on me picking her up from eunos at 7pm. In the end, i got my entire family to wait there at 7am, while i got there at 7.30pm. Well, we had to rush down to shangri-la for the major family dinner with big shot relatives and 6 tables were waiting for us since we got there 45 min late. Dun understand why they just dun start first.. N i really hate the jams in AMK n eunos.

Finally tendered today. Had to undergo another 1 hour session with my partner who was disappointed in me leaving despite all his talk. Anyhow, he still gave me the option to withdraw my letter up to my last day. He's right that i dun hv a strong pull factor cos i dun really know what i want 10 years from now. Was thinking abt it when driving n i figured it could be due to my parents making all my decisions all my life. In fact, they usually override my decisions, so it was always abt what they want, not me. N they say it's for my own good. Which leads to my current situation where i can't even decide properly what i want in life. I even wanted to be a nun a couple of months back..

That aside, tonight's tkd drills in changkat brought back certain memories of my girls' fighter team. Maybe i should train a junior team since there're so many kids in elias now. Of cos they should still be at least 9 years old or so otherwise i might end up strangling them for falling behind. Then again, i'm supposedly patient with my students.. :) Regardless, i'm definitely feeling inspired to a certain degree. Wanna train fighters once more. But also prepare to live with the disappointments that come along with it.