Crushing Waves

Reading about the tsunami waves and how it killed so many people brought me to tears. Maybe I'm a huge cry baby, but I know my heart is weak. Thinking about it now makes me reflect on certain things. After all, my close colleague was in Phuket at that time. She told me how she ran for her life and the entire escapade. It was frightening to think of her not surviving the waves. Most of the time, it's only reading about other people, knowing their plights. But when you think of it happening to someone you know, or even worse, someone close to you, the feelings are just different. I recall myself being out at the sea that morning. Para-gliding, jet-skiing, etc. I was in Pattaya, just slightly away from where the tsunami waves hit. If that part of Thailand did not block Pattaya, I would have a 101% chance of being swallowed. After all, I can't swim. Yeah, I am totally useless I know. Somehow, I wish that the waves took me away... Then I won't need to explain so many things to various people right now. I hate explaining. I always feel that people will find out the truth on their own later, be it before or after death.