Enlightenment

Although i didn't make a very touching speech to say goodbye to alcohol for good, i still intended to keep my resolution for the year. Of course, there are lapses once in a while, like last night.. i went for the corona salsa party (without drinking a single drop of corona since i dun like it) at club88 n had mocktails. Good start. Then they decided to go to china doll. Julynn was already starting her "high" mode and forced everyone to pick a bottle. In the end (i've got a feeling it's thanks to me..), we had barcardi 151 which is like 75.5% alcohol. There goes my efforts into the drain. Once again, it was party till 4am with a weird indulgence for trance music (i seriously still don't think i like it at all since i feel it's mostly just beats n no music), playing finger games and silly dice games. A couple of my girlfriends were high and started unbuttoning my shirt on the dance floor, insisting that i shld look sexier. Geez.

Despite not having enough sleep since i had a noon party at another pub to celebrate someone's birthday n karaoke session in the evening, i still took a walk from my massage place back home just now. Well, the distance is probably a little like walking from pasir ris to tanah merah. I must say that it was a pretty enlightening walk. From the little girl trying to sleep on a table that's of her size (along the walkway) with only a thin cloth for bedsheet to the people who cannot differentiate work from personal time by siting outside their small shops in tiny lanes, probably still expecting customers after midnight (yeah, i was walking at that time). I guess it was a walk i need in a very long time to clear some of the thoughts in my head. Especially those thoughts that always hit a dead end.