Lethargy

Feeling so lethargic today. Not much energy to do my work, yet i've gotta do them cos it's deadline from US. Sighz.. And now something has gone wrong with my house pc too. My brother keeps wanting me to fix it n he's even put up a huge notice at the monitor! Gosh.. i'm so lazy. And i'm thinking of the stupid diablo game. I wanna complete act 3 today. Think too much diablo is causing me to dream about it. Had a dream that i was drinking health potions.. crazy isn't it?

IVP over

Yesterday was IVP. Woke up pretty early by my standards for a saturday n had lunch at my buddy's place. Headed to NTU for the ivp after cos there was a chance that she might be fighting. Well, she really wants to fight n is hoping that she could for a very long while. She got her chance n was fighting the last match of the day. It was worrying for everyone else cos her legs are suffering from serious injuries n a mistake might cos her to be handicapped for life. Guess God answered everyone's prayers n she fought only 1 person who had a good heart. Her opponent fought with full sportsmanship without stooping to kicking my buddy's leg. Still, it was quite sad to see my buddy cry in the ring.. N in order to watch my buddy fight n coach her, i had to cancel my class which inadvertently created quite a lot of trouble for the club.. Sighz.. i feel very apologetic to darren but i really didn't have a choice..

After the match, went to play lan game again. Was trying to help my buddy get past 1st act, so didn't do much to progress my character. Headed home after. Was very tired n had a splitting headache. Been having the headache since morning. Slept at about 2am n got up at 8+ this morning to rush down to NTU again. As my big sir wasn't around, he wanted me to be there to look after matters. Left at 2+ in the afternoon cos my big sir arrived n wanted to head home. Was so so tired that i drove slowly like a truck. Then I heard a song on the radio.. that reminded me of things n made me depressed for a while. In the end, i somehow ended up sleeping in the car near that place. Got woken up by a phone call n decided to play game again. Took my mind off stuffs.. Finished playing at about 11pm to have dinner then headed home. Need to do my work, but don't have the mood to do it. My mind's occupied with rubbish again. If only i can throw them out, if only i can toss them into the sea, if only i could just drown them.. n drown myself too...

3G launch

Today, singtel's going to launch their 3G services at orchard n have invited many celebrities. I'll be going there to see my nokia 6680 which they have oredi started advertising. The price was around my estimation, abt $968 with plan n $1,300+++ without. I'm still thinking if i should jus get it with their promotion of $200 off per pair, or should i wait for prices to plunge further which they definitely will. Regardless, i'm hoping to see how that nokia 6680 looks like, as well as the samsung z107. Samsung phones always look good. Unfortunately, it's flip instead of candybar.. 2 flip phones are too thick for me so i'd rather go with candybar.

End of duriel

During cash flow game last night, i managed to accumulate a sizeable amount of passive income, but still not enough for me to get out of the rat race. Don't hv much blessings in this game cos i only got deals at the end of the game. Maybe it's a sign? Hmm..

After the game, i still had energy to rush down to play diablo. Was having gastrics cos i didn't hv my dinner so i ate something at the student hostel before playing. Headed straight to the correct tomb n searched for duriel in his chamber. After losing almost all my money cos i keep getting killed, i FINALLY managed to kill that worm!!!! Gosh.. i was panicking cos the whole lan shop was waiting for me to kill that worm before they could close shop. Was so stressed out... :( Now i'm in Act 3. Hope i can kill mephisto by next week.. it's quite a challenge to do that though as my entire weekend is oredi burnt with the ivp.

I just recalled that in the movie I Do I Do, adrian pang mentioned a phrase "She's lucky, she can choose to love or not to love. For me, I can only choose to love or love her even more." Somehow, I know what he's talking about. But is that something lucky or not? Regardless the outcome, I'm glad i had that experience of being in it so deeply.. for the first time...

Good news or bad news?

This morning when I woke up, the guy from NTU replied my sms. The verdict was out, my buddy can't fight in the IVP. Forwarded the sms to her n believe she would be pretty upset about it. Frankly, I've got mixed feelings about it. I understand how she feels, maybe not as much as herself but guess I'm halfway there? That was the reason why I helped her ask NTU anyway. But in the process of doing that, Peiqi scolded me cos she thinks that the outcome was good. My buddy didn't have to risk paralysis n there won't be any chance in meeting each other in the ring. Ok, regardless there also won't be any chance in meeting each other becos Peiqi and i oredi planned out what would happen if that happens..

Now I'm just thinking how my buddy can get over it.. sighz... it seems like it's good news for everyone else except herself. Maybe I'll give her an alternative... :)

Busy busy

Managed to squeeze in some time for white noise last night after dinner as it ended earlier though i missed the 1st 45min of it or something.. After the show, i rushed back to suntec n caught I Do I Do with them. Oh yeah, my grandma joined us for dinner and the show too! Ha.. she was grumbling about it though cos Mediacorp was showing better shows on tv during that prime time?? :) White noise was quite a good suspense show and a little terrifying despite not seeing the first half of it. I Do I Do was alrite. I was expecting something better. Maybe cos my younger sis was watching it for a 2nd time..

Was knocked out when i got home. Fell asleep with my light on again while playing RTK10. Woke up quite late this morning n had to rush to work for conference call with US. So many things on my plate suddenly for no reason, like being arrowed to be in charge of ITE project as well, then clear NHG file, etc. Gosh.. that deputy CEO for ITE even had to emphasise for my 24x7 availability during yesterday's meeting since i'm the in-charge! :(

Now to coordinate everything n probably visit my clients all over the island. Have another cash flow game lined up for tonight. Hopefully I can get out of the rat race today! :)

Hot n sunny

It's so hot n sunny these last few days. Bush fires have been occurring everywhere on the island. Yesterday, in Tampines, you can smell the stench from anywhere! Ha, went to play game again last night. Was so frustrated cos 1 of the monsters was really tough to kill. In the end, there wasn't enough time to look for the last monster of Act2. How irritating is that?? !@##%@$!$#! Oh, n i finally manage to get hold of the 2-cd version to RTK10!! YES!!! Installed it n the initial graphics look pretty good. I'll have to find time to play it. Not a good idea to have 2 games on hand cos i'll lose focus..

Can't continue gaming tonight though. Have a family dinner to celebrate the last of CNY, then we're all heading to watch I Do I Do (thanks to my bro's brilliant idea). Hope it won't be too boring for me cos i'm falling asleep. N i've got free tix to white noise tonite. Seems like i've gotta give it a miss n probably waste the tix.. :( forgot abt it actually...

Game away

Oh man, i'm so addicted to diablo that i'm researching on the game the whole of yesterday on which strategies my soceress should use. Then went to play till 1+am again. Wanted to eat the nice fries, but they were closing by the time i got there so i had them heat up the slice of heaven instead which made up my dinner. If i continue at this rate, i'll probably be losing 10kg in a week! Ok, kidding..

Was almost late for my meeting this morning n i blamed it on the cab driver. I've got so much work to do, yet i'm feeling sleepy n i know the only thing that will probably keep me awake will be the game itself. Sighz... thinking if i should rest tonight or game away again. At least it takes my thoughts to a non-existent planet..

Weekend again

It had been a pretty busy weekend for me. Yesterday, when i was half awake, I had to send my buddy from the east-most side of the island to the west-most portion. I was really tired so i let my buddy handle the wheel (even when she hadn't gotten her license..). That was how tired I am! Spent the whole morning waiting for her turn, then spent the whole afternoon waiting for the silly balloting. Left before they finished and let my buddy drive to her gf's house to pick her up. Due to her gf's request, i allowed my buddy to continue driving to sim lim sq which was half a mistake cos she almost crashed a few times!!! :(

I was faced with disappointment again cos my wireless usb adapter remained out of stk. Thereafter, i had to rush down to pick my siblings up at taka then to my god brother's house for dinner before rushing to my tkd class..

This morning, i was awaken by peiqi who asked me to teach her accounts. She came to pick me up (rare thing.. hee..) n we went to bedok interchange for lunch. Settled down at starbucks in siglap after that n taught her till it was 5pm! Gosh.. that's how addictive accounts can be huh? :)

Went to play game after that. Can u imagine, i'm playing diablo 2 again, but this time it's the expansion Lord of Destruction. It's still quite old n the game's still the same, but it's not quite the same. I'm still good old soceress.. girl power... Played till 12.30am without realising it! Was so hungry, i ate some kaya toast that was so lousy. Sighz.. waste of calories..

Budget

Today was supposed to be an exciting day since it was the budget speech. Waited patiently the entire day in front of the pc, but it was only 3.45pm that the speech was done. It was quite a disappointment. Guess they ran out of goodies idea? I don't know, but really the only thing that's in it for me are the reduced tax rates that will only apply next year. Right now, i'm still the same old shape. Even the man in the street is going to benefit much more than me! :(

2 dads

Oh yeah, did i say that i completed reading the book last night? Yeah.. sort of got me inspired to do something. Or rather, i'm quite determined to go ahead with my plan now rather than sit n procrastinate. I'm aiming to be bankrupt before 30, so i must act now! Wish me luck.. :)

Kungfu review

Had a fantastically huge dinner that costed 40bucks per person n headed home thereafter. Got home pretty early, so I decided to watch kungfu hussle with my brother (though he had seen it before). Borrowed the dvd from a friend.

I feel so happy that I made the RIGHT decision insisting NOT to watch the show in the cinema. Real waste of money! Gosh.. the show's downright stupid n partially entertaining. Complete stephen chow's style? Not really.. ok, it depends. Sometimes he's got pretty interesting shows that had more plot n storyline. This one's pretty off. Oh well, I guess i didn't really pay to watch the show, so i shouldn't be complaining.. :0

Anyway, i think i've found the phone that's got all the functions i want, with a reasonable design. Actually, it's boring old design, but at least it's not distorted or have some weird looking drawing on it that makes it look like an out-of-shape cigarette lighter. And it's not flip kind, which is what I'm looking for, cos i oredi have 1 n another 1 will make my pockets look bulky. If u're wondering what hp i'm talking abt, it's the nokia 6680. Ok, it's not THAT nice, but it's not THAT ugly either.. And to me, the functions matter a lot. Well, it's the 1st bluetooth hp from nokia, n it's 3G, which is what i'm looking for. And they had the brains to put memory expansion slot for the hp that new sony ericsson hps are missing out on. I really hope it comes to singapore soon... but then the tip-off seems to say that the hp's going to be >$1k, which is so not worth it... Hope the price will drop to more reasonable levels during the 2nd qtr when nokia 6681 ships in. :)

MC day

Woke up today feeling very sick. Was having a fever since last night. Have a splitting headache too. Decided to take MC and stay home to rest. However, I had to go see a doctor somewhere before that. Got a 2-day mc from the doc, but I still hv to go to work tomorrow as I've got an appointment in Jurong Island. Yeah, that's the last place anyone should go to but.. :(

Oh yeah, my buddy was asking for me to help her take class tomorrow night. Sighz.. I wish I can help her out, but I really don't know if I should be missing cell group. As i'll be going taiwan next month, i'll be missing lots of cell groups which isn't too good. Hmm...

After dinner

Today's the 7th day of Chinese New Year, also known as People's Day. As usual, I had a major family dinner with my relatives consisting of about 6 tables or so at Hotel Intercontinental. Dinner was good of course, but I've been having a sore-throat since yesterday or day before. Was drinking lots of water the whole day n visiting the toilet regularly too, but it wasn't helping too much. I'm starting to feel feverish now.. I suspect it's the sambal sotong I accidentally ate a couple of nights back. And for the first time, I'm having dry lips that are cracking up when I'm in Singapore, which is super humid! Wonder if there's a virus going around cos my brother seemed to have gotten that too..

Sent my grandma home after dinner cos she was drunk (she said she wasn't but..). Headed home with my siblings thereafter. Started reading the Rich Dad Poor Dad book n am halfway into it already. Think i can finish it by tomorrow if i don't play games. Quite interesting n got me thinking quite a lot. Maybe a day of sick leave might be good for me to stay home n think about what that guy's trying to say, though I believe i've got the gist of it already. The only reason why i've stopped reading it for now is cos i'm tired n need to wake up early tomorrow to run the rat race. Going to sleep now.. nitez...

Stress over

Been stressed out abt certain things over the past few days. Was thinking too much again.. Anyway, i'm not sure if everything went well in the end, but half of the things I wanted were not carried out due to so many things. Stress is really no good for me, but i'm glad it's over.. for now..

Went to my uni hall mate's friend's house this afternoon to play the cash flow game by that guy who wrote rich dad poor dad. Never read that book before, but after the game, I was quite impressed with him. I see the similiarity betweeen him n Einstein. He is doing the same for financial intelligence as einstein was doing for atomic physics. Well, think i'll be reading the book soon.. :) Oh, n i might join them for the next cash flow game session too.

My jc friend was stuck outside her house again. Her mum called her last night n told her to stay out for 1 week. Sighz.. wanted to smuggle her into my house to sleep but so many relatives were over at my place gambling so I couldn't do that. In the end, she stayed with another jc friend who happens to stay near my house.. hmm.. wonder where she'll be tomorrow night though.

Should be going to bed soon. Tomorrow's going to be a long day working.. got deadline to meet n i actually forgot who my client was! Had to sms fae to ask.. quite embarrassing... geez..

Wanna dance?

Woke up at noon n had a good lunch with my family. Stayed home n waited for my relatives to come. In the meantime, I watched another of my dvd, Shall We Dance. Sort of inspired me to take up some dance classes.. Think the dancing poise looks good, n richard gere has good charisma too.. :)

oh well, my relatives finally arrived at 6pm n we kept them entertained till around 7pm+ before heading over to another relative's place. Didn't have time for dinner even after that cos we were supposed to be going to yet another relative's place n they were already calling us! Sighz.. ate loads of bak kwa instead to make up for the loss of dinner despite my 2 super huge ulcers. I didn't hv the courage to eat more than that though.. my ulcers were really killing me as they were positioned at the most vulnerable locations. And yeah, I showed my elder sis my ulcers this afternoon n guess what? She screamed her head off! Oh man, people were like rushing over to find out what happened n suddenly everyone was looking at my ulcers too just to realise that she was over-reacting again... geez..

CNY visits

Yesterday was simply tiring. Had to wake up early in the morning to drive down to Dover n visit one of my relatives. This meant that i oni had a few hours of sleep. Headed down to my grandma's house after that to have lunch. As usual, she cooked all the food we loved. Happened to watch a show on tv after lunch. It was about 3 siblings. It was such a touching show, I cried from the start of the show till the end of it. Why do they play such shows on the first day of CNY? What happened to standard stephen chow shows???

Went to couple more relatives' places in the afternoon then headed home feeling totally zonked out. I was quite upset that i couldn't eat much of the CNY cookies (which i happen to like very much) cos of my 2 huge mouth ulcers. Blistering barnacles.. i went to the doc a few days ago to burn them, but it ended up that the STUPID doctor, i repeat, STUPID doctor, simply talked to me about ulcers for half an hour WITHOUT even looking at my ulcers! He went on n on abt stupid theories, traditional concepts vs current mindsets. He must be really lonely! He doesn't even understand when I tell him that I always just burn my ulcers. STUPID DOCTOR!!!

Went to river angbao in the late evening. The traffic was so bad n some people parked their vehicles along the road. Saw a few traffic police booking those vehicles, while a family was trying to get an officer to rescind his summon. Guess it didn't work out from the looks on their faces.. Got home concussed n had a good sleep till now. Hope today would be a lot less tiring although i'm supposed to be going to at least 3 different places after lunch. :(

Chinese New Year

It's Chinese New Year today! Had reunion dinner with my family then did the annual ritual of squeezing with everyone else in chinatown. This year wasn't as bad cos we didn't stay there too long. The whole place was ridiculously packed with people n i see quite a number of ang mos joining in the crowd..

Decided against staying to watch the fireworks as it was really too packed so we headed home instead. Dropped by Bugis to pick up some fruits that we missed in chinatown too. Came home n realised that my ears were bleeding again, so I decided to remove my earrings tonight. My younger sis n bro were too scared to help me remove my earrings so I had to DIY for the first time. Took me so much courage to do it.. a good start to the new year?

Oh, just remembered that I was watching Notebook this afternoon. It was so touching, it brought back memories again. It also created even more illusions for hallucinations that are updated in another blog. The show was really beautiful.. I wish I didn't have to think so much n cry so easily..

Approaching CNY

Chinese new yr's approaching once more. It's like heading towards me so fast, i dun think i prepared anything for it. Been so busy hunting for a place to eat reunion dinner cos everywhere seemed to be completely booked. My dad was contemplating of eating at macdonalds or cafe cartel.. geez.. in the end, i guess we managed to secure a place at teahouse. Hope it'll work out fine.

Dropped by JB too. Saw a few rocket fireworks n wanted to bring them back, but didn't exactly have the courage to do so as they are quite huge. End up bringing in some dvds instead. My terrible habit.. didn't get too many, but bought some interesting shows which i believe will last me thru the entire CNY week. The best find was Notebook, a show which I had been trying to catch for ages. Hope i've got time for it..

Think i'll continue working on my project. Been quite stressed over it for a while. So many thoughts n ideas in my head, yet i dunno which one works best. :(

Nightmare

I just remembered why I woke up. I was having a nightmare. Dunno if it was the effect of the scary movie i watched a couple of nights ago, or the arcade games I was playing last night. Anyway, while i still remember the bits n pieces, i shall type it here.

For some reason, we were having a shootout with some baddies at my 8th grand auntie's place. I can't recall who was in my team, but I know quite a few baddies got shot. We were hiding as best as we could as the baddies had shot guns while we were armed with funny guns. I was hiding behind a wall, when I saw the baddie just in front of the wall. This baddie was an african-american. I shot my funny gun in his face n he yelped in pain. I didn't hv time to reload, so i quickly ran off as he was fuming. He took his shot gun n fired towards me. I managed to stoop down in time as i foresaw his shot. I then ran down the stairs all the way. I was running for my life as he was hot behind my heels! In my head, I kept thinking where to run to. I couldn't recall where the nearest police station was. I just kept running till I woke up..

Maybe it was really me playing too many gun games in the arcarde last night. I've got such ridiculous imaginations.. after all, a dream's still a dream..

Aching bones

The last few nights had been tiring for me physically. First, it was training on Friday night. The training wasn't that much, it was the doing of the patterns that was tiring. Caught a mid-night show after that as I guess it was more relaxing? Still, my insufficient sleep from the night before (think 3 hours at most?) made me really tired too. Got home at about 3+am after the movie and had to wake up at 8am to climb some hill. My uni friend called me several times to make sure that i was awake, while my younger sis frantically woke me up so that she won't be late for school! My legs were feeling soft when i woke up and the idea of climbing the hill really put me off but I still went cos i oredi flew my friend's aeroplane a few weeks ago..

The hike up the hill was pretty good ironically. It was quite fun despite my lack of stamina. Luckily I didn't pack any food there cos the monkeys were running everywhere n i didn't exactly intend to attract their attention. My brother asked me to get don's pie for his lunch, so i bought it n headed home for lunch. After a couple of slices, i was totally knocked out on my bed. So much for all the workout.. Slept till 7.45pm when i had to go take class. Went to look for dinner after class with a few friends. Was thinking of going JB but 2 of my friends didn't bring along their passport so we ended up in tiong bahru mkt. Ate so much to make up for the lack of food n played arcade games after that. It was so fun to play good old virtua cops once more, n tried a new car racing game that was really fun. For the 1st time, the car had 6 gears so i couldn't resist the temptation of playing manual transmission!

Got home at 2+am again n was knocked out once more till now. I'm supposed to be in church now, but i overslept. My younger sis oso took my car for her yoga class. Sighz.. dunno if i shld join my uni friend at toa payoh later for cash flow game. It sounded quite interesting to me when she told me abt it yesterday. I'm jus feeling lazy..

Savoir

My brother came looking for me again at PwC yesterday evening. Wish his holidays would end soon so that he won't bother me so much. Brought him to Savoir for dinner and this time, apart from the warm choc fondant that I introduced him, we had creme brulee for dessert too! It was not too bad, about the standard of baker's inn as well but not as huge.

Went to Novena Sq thereafter to recee for restaurants to have our reunion dinner. Yeah, it's kinda late now and everywhere's fully booked but we have yet to locate a good place. At most we'll just eat at home. The strongest resistance came from my brother of cos. Sighz.. the burden of hunting the place is on me once more..

An old song

是否對你承諾了太多　還是我原本給的就不夠
你始終有千萬種理由　我一直都跟隨你的感受
該你瘋　讓你去放縱　以為你　有天會感動
關於流言　我裝作無動於衷

直到所有的夢已破碎
才看見你的眼淚和後悔　我是多想再給你機會
多想問你究竟　愛誰
既然愛　難分是非　就別逃避　勇敢面對
給了他的心　你是否能夠　要得回

怎麼忍心怪你　犯了錯
是我給你自由　過了火
讓你更寂寞　才會陷入感情漩渦

怎麼忍心讓你受折磨
是我給你自由過了火
如果你想飛　傷痛我揹

Bitching

Spent an evening with a group of colleagues in Carnegies bitching about the managers. Told them how i diplomatically informed one of the partners about the incompetency of a particular senior manager. That guy really can't make it man! Anyway, i'm quite proud of myself that i didn't drink. Not only becos i had sharp pains in my chest n lower rite corner below my hip bone, but oso becos i didn't eat dinner. I didn't wanna drink on an empty stomach for good reasons. Some of them wanted to go eat dinner, while i was simply interested in the warm choc fondant at savoir so i headed there with kyra n fae who were convinced to drink coffee there. In the end, when they saw the menu, they ordered french onion soup, pasta, coffee n desserts. N they blamed me for it! I was of cos only focused on my choc fondant n was close to licking my plate. Ha! Think it's probably about the standard of bakers inn, which is not bad.. :)