Jus another day

Woke up pretty late today, so I missed church. Had lunch at home n re-networked my house with my good old netgear in my brother's room. Think i'll still go ahead to buy a belkin n sell off my netgear. Wonder how much pple would pay for it though..

Headed to her place again before going to great world to catch elektra. Quite an anti-climax since the bad guys were looking good but yet were so easily killed in the end. Met up with my buddy after the show as she was working in the evening. Went to toa payoh thereafter to see handphones before heading back to great world to pick my buddy up. She wanted to drive my car so badly, I relented n made the biggest mistake. It resulted in the biggest shock of my life! Oh man.. ok, a quick recap..

I decided to let her take over the wheel just before going onto ECP at suntec area cos that seems to be the safest spot. Moreover, how dangerous can ECP get? Problem is that, when she filtered out, she cut into 2 lanes. The 1st lane had a slow approaching car so it wasn't that bad. But the 2nd lane had a very fast car dashing towards the ECP! The car horned for so long n swerved into another lane to avoid her. The driver later stopped in the middle of the road to wait for my buddy n stared n gestured at her. I was so embarrassed i jus looked at the steering wheel instead of at the driver. Geez.. it was almost an accident!

For the rest of the journey, I told her to take the left lane n drive at SLOW speed.. n she complained it was boring.. We went to 85 mkt n had her fav tang yuan before going to pick her gf up from pasir ris station. What a day..

A good night rest

Last night was one of the rare occassions when I was totally knocked out by mid-night. Had a good sleep though I believe I had at least 2 different dreams. Could still remember 1 of them when I woke up, but I've totally forgotten everything now. :( For some reason, I'm thinking of this song now..

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
So forever can begin

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

The Aviator

Forgot to add a piece of shocking news. Was reading the newspapers yesterday morning and guess what? The Aviator had 11 Oscar nominations!! I was like "What??!?!@# Are u serious???".. I mean, the 6 of us were like yawning, stretching, freezing, sleeping, crouching, etc. while watching the super long arty-farty show. Or did we miss out something?

Poor thing

My brother just called me. My older sis, my niece and my mum are with him in Orchard. They're going to eat at Paragon Spaggedies and asked me to go. I wanna eat Spaggedies, but I don't wanna pay cos i'm broke.. Dunno wat to tell them or if i should join them. Hate this feeling of being broke.

Wore my new blue blouse and new black pants today with my condemned black shoes. It felt like people liked the clothes until they saw the pair of shoes. Are they really that bad? I've gotta get new black shoes soon, but that would mean spending even more money! ARGH!!!

Plaza Sing again

Today, I'm back at Plaza Sing but this time with different company. My brother was there to collect my stuffs, so he pestered everyone else to go down and join him. I got there at 7pm. Was caught in a jam due to the Thaipusam. My mum met us soon after to look at the furniture. My dad only met us subsequently in Wisma as I went there to get my Wisma card for overspending.

I just feel really tired now, yet I don't feel like going to bed. For some reason, I miss talking to someone over the phone.. Yes, I'm thinking of her again. I've been thinking of her everyday and every night for so long. Why is it that I still miss her so much?

I've already embarked on my project. Hope the effect will be well worth the efforts..

Battle songs

Just saw the lyrics of the songs "Fuck it" and "Fuck you right back". Didn't realise that they were songs written to spite each other till I heard them one after the other. A thought came into my mind when I saw them.. that I'm glad I didn't reach that stage with her.. Don't think there was a need for that either? :) Geez, i'm thinking too much again..

Another fruitless attempt

Today, I wore my new pink suit. Everyone in office made the same remark "Hey, so this is THE pink suit?" .. gosh, seems like half the company knows about my stupid purchase of the pink suit last week. Strangely, they seem to like it..

Fae decided it was time to get new black shoes, so we headed down to Plaza Sing and walked around the place. We turned out with nothing at the end of the night. Fae was disappointed once more and I'll probably have to go for another session of shoe hunting tomorrow or some time soon. Anyway, I passed by a ear-piercing shop and asked them to help me clean my infected ear. Bought a pair of new earrings there as Fae thought the earrings were quite sweet-looking. Of course, I couldn't tell the difference..

My ear..

After a month of earring, my left ear finally got infected. Was oozing out pus and blood, while the ear itself was puffy / swollen. Removed the earring and blood clogged in the hole. Fae and Kyra said that I've gotta re-pierce my ear-hole, or live with jus one. Gosh.. I really don't know which is the better option, but I know it's less painful now that I've removed the left earring.. Hopefully someone can give sound advice soon for me to make a decision. I'm really clueless on such stuffs man..

Chakpalang

So many things happened. I've been chiong-ing my korean drama since Saturday afternoon I woke up till 8am this morning. Still had a last episode outstanding when I knocked out. This was supposedly a happier drama serial Fae lent me, but I guess that portions of the show reminded me of some things that triggered the tears..

My JC friend was upset over her girlfriend so we drove over to JB at midnight to drink, hoping to cheer her up. She drank beer. I didn't drink as I suspect something is wrong due to recent acting up from my organs. At about 2am, we headed back to Singapore. I got home at about 3am and continued my korean drama. Gosh, I didn't know I could last so long..

Had to wake up for lunch at Summer House in Panpac. It's to celebrate my niece's birthday. She's 3 yrs old already! Got there at almost 2pm as I managed to crawl out of my bed only at about 12.45pm.. Finished eating at about 4pm. Went to suntec with my family to look at furniture in Courts. My parents want to change the furniture in the living room and dining room. My mum's finally talking to me now as she wants me to pay for the new furniture.. Oh well, now's the chance to get rid of all the teakwood stuffs and move in my pool table! Then again, I'm broke. Think I'm overspending on alcohol the last 1 month or so. Went around a few places to check out new furniture. Throughout the journey in the day, I was watching my last episode with my laptop in the car. Then it had to run out of battery at the last 10 minutes! Damn! Can only complete the show when I finally got home.. :(

Bloated

I had buffet dinner last night at Noble House. Made an online reservation but they didn't receive it. It was full house, but we insisted on eating. So they decided to setup a table for us outside the restaurant. As if I didn't have enough stares that day, but my friends really wanted to eat there for a while so..

Totally bloated from all the food, we decided to go prawn fishing that was 24 hours. When we got there, we realised that the place had closed down. In the end, we bowled at Downtown East before heading home at 4am.

Tonight's going to be another busy time. My colleagues are having bbq at a manager's condo in tiong bahru. I agreed to go for it before my aunt called me to say that my cousin's 21st birthday dinner was tonight too! I decided to go for the bbq later before heading down for my cousin's dinner. As all my colleagues (about 20+ of them) are bringing very nice alcohol, I wanna go back there after my cousin's dinner! :) I finished most of my alcohol, except for my whisky, bacardi n stolichnaya that are not opened. Think I'll probably donate my whisky..

Ok, i've gotta fix up my comp now then go look for my cousin's birthday present later. He supposed prefers an angpow, but my younger sis n me decided we should get him something..

The clown

Fae messaged me to wear the white suit with the black tube, the new pink shoes, stockings n pink lipstick. I wore accordingly, except for the lipstick cos i wasn't too sure what her pink meant. Guess what? I was definitely not oversensitive, but EVERYONE was staring at me. I'm serious. I went to this client's place in woodlands and people from the IT, Accounts to the production staff stared at me! It's not look, but stare, that's why I know.

I went back to office in the late afternoon to complain to Fae. While waiting for her, my secretary walked past me, stopped and stared for a long time before bursting out laughing. I bet she messaged other people cos my other colleagues started pacing up and down next to me. SHUCKS!! Fae didn't come back till an hour later. When she saw me, she had the answer. She screamed at me "How can you wear the black stockings from UK??" ... oh my gosh, I thought that the stockings were bought by an angel, so it would never go wrong? So she asked me to take them off immediately and helped me out with the lipstick combo. She was laughing her head off thinking that I walked the whole day with my UK stockings. Oh man.. I feel like a clown! She said no wonder everyone was staring at me.. I'm such a goon. She decided that next time, she has to get down to the details, saying that she meant beige translucent stockings and not leave it up to me to think.

I still can't get over it..

Pocket burnt

For the first time, my clothes were not condemned yesterday. This is becos I wore the pink shirt and shoes selected by an angel, then wore my beige pants I bought from Melbourne that I liked.. :) Yesterday was PI day. It meant that we could go off by 6pm. But of course, my colleague Fae enjoys dragging and we ended up leaving only at 6.30pm. After all, we had a mission on hand and couldn't stay too late.

Dumped our stuffs at Tangs, then headed down to Olio Dome for dinner. It was fantastic! The torment starts after dinner.. Went down to Wisma and started the hunt for my clothes. Gosh, I tried on so many clothes in record time as most shops were closing. Fae was quick in knowing what I didn't look nice in. At the end of the day, I bought 2 skirt-suits, 1 pair of pants, 2 or 3 blouses, 1 pair of shoes and... u won't believe it. 1 tube. It was my first time wearing a tube and Fae said it was nicer than hers so she asked me to get it. I spent abt $500 on everything! Fae said that was reasonable.. hmm.. Don't really know, but they said I could get a Wisma card already. I was also supposed to get the Southaven VIP card, but I gave it to Fae. And as for the G2000 VIP card, I was apparently buying clothes in the wrong month. They only have it in Feb so... anyway, it's not too important since I didn't think I'll be frequenting the shops..

Woah, I can't believe I spent so much on clothes and shoes! I don't really know if it was well-spent, but I hope people won't be so ashamed of me anymore..

Oh yeah, the matter between the 2 of them is finally resolved! And it was an amicable agreement apparently..

Resolved?

Today, both of them decided to sit down at Coffee Bean to talk things through. I haven't exactly had the chance to speak to any of them since, but I don't exactly wanna know too much either cos i dun wanna be involved. It's between them.

My dressing is being criticised again. What I wore yesterday was condemned totally. As for today, at least my pants passed the screening test. The last time I went shopping at Suntec for 4 hours with Fae resulted in nothing for myself but something for her (of course). Now, she's decided that she's not able to get over the last failed attempt and insist on changing my wardrobe at Orchard. She told me to set aside $1k! It sounds like a ridiculous amount for wardrobe, especially when it means that I could hv gotten my X800XT instead!! But she said I need to change everything from top to shoes. Sighz.. do I really need help that badly? Guess that's part of the reason why people will be ashamed of me..

Deja vu

I've just listened to both sides of their stories. I guess I didn't exactly create anything, but triggered an impending explosion. Both have different perspectives of the chain of events and I'm caught in between. To me, it's simply a huge misunderstanding. I suggested for them to sit down and clear it up after they've cooled down. Right now, it looks like a pretty bad time for them to do anything. Anyway, one of them was quite sad that it turned out this way such that they can't be friends anymore. When she said that, it reminded me of what just happened to me. Everything's a misunderstanding. When people cool down, hopefully they'll clear things up. However, this is something that both parties must agree on. It cannot only be one of them trying to clear things up.

She sent him an email to sit down and talk, but he apparently replied her an abrupt message to say that he's not ready to talk. Sighz.. I hope he'll cool down in a week or so to listen to what she has to say..

He called me again. This time he's drunk. He said he didn't wanna talk to her cos he didn't wanna hear what she's going to say. He said that she'll piss him off with her words again. He's going back to his old lifestyle of being an asshole and that there's so much hatred in him. Then he started crying.. I don't know what to do. In the end, I told him that he's drunk and should go home and sleep. Then he started saying that he can't bring the issue home. He's gotta show "positivism" to his son and wife. He sounds pathetic. I don't know what to say. Why am I so stupid? Why can't I understand what people are thinking about??

Singing again

Another song that has an impact on me..

爱上了一个人　
能够为她牺牲　
就算付出了生命
我甘心为了你　
两个人在一起　
分享爱的命运
永远都不会忘记　
我们生活点滴　
你是我最深爱的女人
你有最美丽的嘴唇
你拥有最动人的眼神
你带给我幸福和快乐　
我是你最深爱的男人
我的爱绝对是永恆　
做什么都值得　
爱上了一个人

Half day gone

I've been trying to go on a diet for a while, but I ate so much yesterday. I loved the chocolate cake at baker's inn but I think that the one at Chijmes is still the best! Next on my list to try is Awfully Chocolate.. looking forward to it.. :) Ok, enough of talking rubbish. I just woke up not too long ago. Half the day's gone already. Got home at 4am this morning. Been eating so much, taking so many stupid pictures with a bunch of friends who simply love taking pictures, I don't know why. Then split between playing pool and bowling. In the end, we played pool cos all the lanes were taken. It's unbelievable cos it was 1am then!

Anyway, I woke up cos the guy creating all the mess to happen called me and woke me up. I was too sleepy to give him a piece of my mind for making her cry, so I said I'll talk to him tomorrow. I guess I'll not say too much anymore as I'll probably just screw it up again..

Ok, have to go to a wake now. Can't believe Miss Tong passed away. Didn't wanna go cos I dun wanna see all the tkd old folks there, but peiqi kept persuading me to go. Guess i'll drop by then head towards ice monster. Yay!! Oh shucks, that means more food again.. :(

Screwed up again

I just blundered again. I really don't know how people think and how people function. I was only thinking of preventing something from happening. Guess I approached it wrongly. In the end, I made the person cry. The person said that it is now a situation of no choice but to allow it to happen. I really need to gain some common sense that normal people have. Who can teach me that? Why am I so stupid?? It's back to self-condemnation once more..

Exhausted

Been working and drinking lots recently. I'm totally exhausted. It's already 8.30pm, yet I'm still in office going to start looking at a 208-pg report. I'm supposed to respond to them by 11pm latest. I feel so drained. Maybe it's good that my energy's zapped so I won't have to spend any thinking about the sad thing that happened. Then again, it also means that my head will stop singing songs.. My eyes are closing, can't think..

One after another

Something sad just happened, and it's causing me to lose my appetite. I can't believe that it happened, nor that I allowed it to happen. I know it's my fault indirectly too. Why do things have to happen one after another?

Anyway, another song sings in my head. It's totally irrelevant to what just happened though..

我們之間沒有延伸的關係
沒有相互佔有的權利
只在黎明混著夜色時
才有淺淺重疊的片刻
白天和黑夜只交替沒交換
無法想像對方的世界
我們仍堅持各自等在原地
把彼此站成兩個世界
你永遠不懂我傷悲
像白天不懂夜的黑
像永恆燃燒的太陽
不懂那月亮的盈缺
你永遠不懂我傷悲
像白天不懂夜的黑
不懂那星星為何會墜跌

10 years

Was with my friend whom I knew for 1o years. Was intending to fix her pc but didn't manage to get the PSU so will do it another time. She then called another friend, whom she had also not met for the last 10 years. After talking for only a couple of minutes, my friend received another call and bade farewell instantly to pick the call up. Apparently it was her girlfriend. Geez.. so much for abandoning a 10 year old friend for her new girlfriend! Chided her thereafter, but she admitted that she was 重色轻友. Anyhow, another song started singing in my head today..

忘了是怎麼開始　
也許就是對你　
有一種感覺　忽然間發現自己　
已深深愛上你　
真的很簡單愛的地暗天黑都已無所謂　
是是非非無法抉擇　喔
沒有後悔為愛日夜去跟隨　
那個瘋狂的人是我　喔
I LOVE U　無法不愛你　
BABY　說你也愛我
I LOVE U　永遠不願意　
BABY　失去你不可能更快樂　
只要能在一起　做什麼都可以　
雖然世界變個不停　
用最真誠的心　讓愛變的簡單
I LOVE U　一直在這裡　
BABY　一直在愛你
I LOVE U　(yes I do)　永遠都不放棄　
這愛你的權利　如果你還有一些困惑　
Oh No　請貼著我的心傾聽聽我說著愛你　(yes I do)　我愛你

Sweetness

My friends (a couple) just gave me their blog address. They share the same blog and update it regularly. 1 of them had even customised the blog's design.

I just finished reading the blog. The blogs that they wrote were very sweet. You can sense they are really so in love with one another and the things they do for one another are quite touching. There may be differences once in a while, but at the end of the day, it's really their love for one another that put them back together.

I guess touching love stories are still in existence and I wasn't living in my own world when I thought it was still possible outside a drama plot. Maybe it doesn't always happen simply because you tried.. Nevertheless, their blog reminded me that sweetness still exist in people's hearts..

Another song

Just when I didn't want to think of anymore songs, the songs just keep singing in my head..

好想告訴你　這熟悉的雨季　
最適合在深夜想你
想你溫柔眼睛 想你專注神情
想念你甜言蜜語
好想問問你今天的心情
才想起你早已遠離
卻又發現自己仍活在回憶裡
以為身旁還有你
如果這一生我們愛不夠　
來生你千萬認得我
如果這一生我給得不夠
來生給你所有的我
就把你深深藏在我心中
一輩子再也不對別人說
說我曾經愛過你　我曾經對你笑過哭過
就把你深深藏在我心中　
一輩子再也不對別人說
就算他日再相遇　也笑著與你擦肩而過

Dreaming?

It was a strange night. I was sleeping and probably dreaming when her dad called me. I noticed that it was 2+am. Anyhow, I picked up his call and heard him apologise. I wasn't quite sure if I was hearing things, but I told him that I'm glad he was willing to drop the entire issue. He said that he started it all and wanted to drop it now. I don't know what made him decide so, but he was not kidding. I could sense his solemn voice even in my half-asleep mode. Then he told me that she was missing. That woke me up entirely. I gave him my buddy's number and called my buddy as well. I wanted to make sure she was alright. Thankfully, I got a positive answer from my buddy. I then fell back to sleep..

Don't try

Don't try to understand me, they come out as excuses and not reasons.
Don't try to know me, you'll think I'm faking it all and not real.
Don't try to read my thoughts, you'll think they're self-pity and not depression.
Don't try to seek my heart, you'll see only the shit but not the innocence inside.

You're right, I should simply be left alone. I'll warn everyone else about myself.People who do not heed the warning would be asking for it. They've been warned..